“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I’ll meet you there, When the soul lies down in that grass. The world is too full to talk about.” -RUMI, A Great Wagon
That my friends, is my good dog Andrew. She (yes she is female), is a good dog and a good companion when I need a friend. She doesn't talk back and she just walks by my side and listens. That's her in the field on my property. She was abandoned here when we bought this place, and has been ours ever since.
I am trying to get back in the habit of writing twice a week again. It seems to keep my mind busy, so I will give it a go again. I feel like I am trying to find myself, like looking for someone that is lost in the woods. And it’s dark, and the forest floor is full of branches and stuff, and I keep tripping and falling and getting lost, while I look for me. I need a flashlight or something....is that a proper metaphor?
I just finished Maps of Meaning, literally just finished it tonight. I read while I was at the softball field for 2 hours. I will say this about the book, it is not a book to pick up and read, like Turtles All The Way Down. This book is a study guide, a really big one. And it is full of wonderful ideas and thoughts and I still love Jordan Peterson, but I do not feel like I have found my meaning. I do not feel 2 inches closer to it; I actually feel farther away. Maybe it's due to setbacks that are happening, or maybe I am not going to find an answer to my question.
I am starting Kelly Wittmann's novel An Authentic Experience now. This book came to me as an inquiry via this blog. Kelly asked for a read and an honest review. That she will get. Stay tuned.
Thank you for the kind emails from my last blog post. Several of you suggested Yoga along with meditation, I think I will give it a try. Some suggested CBD oil, but I already do that. I actually make my own. It’s the real stuff too, not hemp...so I am hoping to eventually work my way up to a dose that I can see some real results from. I definitely need to work on consciousness more, to overcome some things, as well as ego. We all suffer from it though, so it’s very common. Some are just trying to fix themselves, and some just don’t care and are willing to stay narcissistic assholes. I for one, would like to be better, eventually. I should not have written that, but this blog is expressive, and that’s just how I feel.
I am off here to take my CBD oil, read some of this book, and head to bed. GN friends.